I am having one of the biggest core wounds of my life arise
My linear mind can’t even begin to comprehend
The schism of pain that I am feeling within.
It is taking me to a whole new octave
Of surrender, trust, and self love.
Reminding me to let go
and align with the divine guidance from above.
The level of humility
that is arising inside of me
Is such a beautiful journey
To begin to really see
The mirror of myself through others ever more clearly.
I am reminded to have deeper compassion for the unique shadows each soul is going through
And let go of my expectations that only lead to pain and suffering, instead of a breakthrough
The Phoenix is cawing
Asking me to ride through the fires of transmutation and re-birth
To retrieve the aspect of my soul from long ago that forgot its innate worth.
It has been a long time
Since I have been scared to see
The shadow that is inside of me
Instead of going within,
I get angry and defensive
And extremely offensive
Which tells me that this is a huge piece
And that this wound is ready to be embraced, loved, and released.
So I call on the waters to purify my body, mind, and soul
To help me let go of trying to be in control
I call on the angels to wrap me in their wings of light
As they gently sing “My child, you are innocent & loved, just surrender; let go of the fight”
I call on the violet flame to burn through what no longer serves
So I can call in what it is that I truly deserve
I call on the masters and ascended beings
Who are always available, present, and overseeing.
I trust in everything
I trust in it all
I embrace the pain
I embrace the confusion
I let go of having to understand it all
And allow myself to move into the ecstatic grief
That transforms the pain into pleasure
And provides the relief.
I choose to traverse this wound with love and strength
No matter the duration and length
I open myself to the highest healing
Knowing these are precious gems of wisdom it is revealing.
I trust in process
I let go
I lay it all on the altar of the One Heart
& One Soul