You know what’s fucking sexy?

When two people love and honor themselves enough that they won’t move into deeper intimacy just because it may feel good or they need to fill something they think is lacking.


Last night I was finally mirrored from the masculine how absolutely beautiful it is when we are both listening to our bodies & hearts, reading the field, communicating and choosing what is inthe highest and if something isn’t a FULL YES, then to know it’s a no.


This beautiful man and I had seen each other a couple of times recently and it was clear there was curiosity in what the attraction was.


Last night after a magickal cacao ceremony and masculine/feminine ritual of deep healing which we were partners in for certain pieces of.. we shared a really deep, electric, quivering ecstatic hug. We were melting into the union of the the divine & I felt like I could’ve stayed in this embrace forever.


We chose to connect more after the event and laid by the pool under the stars.


That was when the energy shifted.


That same pure divine love that was rippling through us was no longer present.


I could tell we were both still curious to see if it would come back. We engaged in different conversations, authentic relating, and ritual & prayer but it was clear that was not the direction of our connection in that moment.


He asked what I was feeling and I expressed that I wasn’t feeling a full yes and that what I really desired more than physical intimacy was what we experienced in the hug with each other when there was this pure innocence and no expectations of what the connection was. He agreed and also shared it didn’t feel like a full yes to him. We didn’t kiss. We could’ve, but it would’ve been laced with uncertainty and that wouldn’t of allowed it to be as deep and powerful as it could be.


I can’t even express how much I love that we could both communicate what we were feeling, not shame blame or project our pain of being rejected onto one another and deeply honor and respect each other for choosing what is in the highest for each of us. This is next level maturity and the type of relating that I wish for us all!


And you know what.. this brought us closer and created deeper gratitude and respect for one another.


Please know that you can communicate your truth and it can be received with grace, maturity, and openness and if it isn’t.. that is not the person you want to be opening your energy to anyways.


Allow yourself to deeply listen.


If one moment it feels amazing and the next it doesn't.. listen to what the field is revealing and take a pause, communicate what’s arising for you, and allow the intelligence of the field to weave itself exactly as its meant to be.


That may look like completely stopping altogether or it may look like allowing the space and energy to move and then seeing what opens next.


Deeply listen, allow what’s real to be revealed and don’t do something if it is not a clear YES!


I am so grateful for this experience with this beautiful brother and can feel the ways it is still rippling deep healing within my entire being.


May we all have the maturity and confidence to be fully ourselves, to express ourselves truthfully and be received with love and respect.


And as many of you know from my other posts, (you can read the one below or the second link is a Facebook live about it) I am all about if it is not a full YES it’s a NO. Don’t compromise your precious self for anything less than what you absolutely deserve and feels completely aligned.

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